hi, i'm jira.

• 26, leo, enfj-t, washington (the state)

i'm an east coaster located in the pnw (moved here in 2023). IRL, i'm a copywriter and content strategist, and i'm currently in my unemployed era. i'm in a particular stage of life where i'm rediscovering the things i like and myself, and i'm giving myself the opportunity to try new things as they come instead of saying no to them. i've been working on healing my inner child, exploring everything that i find interest in, and building up the courage to do things that scare me.

outside of work, i aspire to write full time- i'm currently writing newsletters about the things that go on in my life. i talk about unemployment, adulthood, and friendships most of the time- navigating these things have been huge topics in my life, and i want to share my experiences with other people so they feel less alone if they're going through the same thing.

i created this site to get into the practice of logging the things that i create and find interest in, and to practice creating something of my own without adding monetary value into the mix! i'm so used to creating things for money that i forgot what it was like to actually create something just because i felt like it.

interests

• film and digital photography (mostly portraits and cityscapes)
• le sserafim, bigbang (is ot4)
• cybersigilism
• raving at dubstep shows
• daily journaling in my hobonichi
• crocheting

read list

• a little life by hanya yanagihara
• the artist's way by julia cameron (week six)
• the creative act: a way of being by rick rubin
• ma and me by putsata reang

a little life by hanya yanagihara

halfway through this book and it just took an unbelieveable turn. i can't believe i'm reading this book. this book was so beautifully written, and i cling onto every word. this book is a literary masterpiece but i hate the things that happen in this book. nothing would've prepared me for this.

the artist's way

• "shaming someone is an attempt to prevent the person from behaving in a way that embarrasses us." (67)
• "...extreme emotions of any kind... are the usual triggers for avoiding the [morning] pages themselves." (80)
• "as we eliminate ambiguity, we lose illusion as well. we arrive at clarity, and clarity creates change." (81)
• "...many recovering creatives sabotage themselves by making nice... when we can't get others to leave us alone, we eventually abandon ourselves." (98)
• "work has to be work and not play... anything we really want to do... [is] considered frivolous and be placed a distant second." (106)

unf*ck your friendships by faith g. harper

• "trauma is an injury to our nervous system that occurs when something overwhelms our ability to cope." (24)
• "we are fed as much by doing things for others as having people do things for us." (25)
• on aristotle's three categories of friends: there are friendships of utility, pleasure, and virtue. (36)
• "what gets these kind-hearted people in a confused state of trouble... is not their internal process, but that becoming their out-loud voice." (66)
• on empathy and compassion: sometimes when others tell us about their experience, the worst thing we can do is talk about ourselves during those moments of distress.

apr 15, 2025

i recently got back into journaling again this week (daily journaling in my hobonichi + morning pages for the artist's way), and i realized how integral writing is to me, like if i don't do it, i feel so empty inside?? it's like my life force is gone!!

i also just filed my taxes, and i think it was single-handedly the hardest thing i've ever done all year. i think that tax filing platforms like turbotax or h&r block always try to get as much money as they possibly can from us for services that we don't care about. the whole time i was on turbotax, it was like they kept asking me to pay extra for a live service. it was so weird and SO icky.

i just finished my second interview at the dance studio for the receptionist job, and i feel like it went really well! i was initially really anxious about showing up as i am, but i was really glad to hear that my authentic self was appreciated and noticed. i feel so validated, like all of the work that i've been doing with the artist's way and just generally doing shadow work and being kinder to myself is really paying off, i think. i feel so proud of myself today.

apr 10, 2025

last night, i was able to spend some time with my girlfriends since we weren't able to see each other earlier this week. it was honestly such a refreshing time, and i was also just so happy to see them. i feel like whenever i hang out with them, i feel so seen, so validated, and so incredibly heard. this is the first time i've developed really intentional and deep friendships with those who in this city.

today, i woke up playing league of legends lol. it was really fun to play at 10am, but it also felt really brain-rotty in a way... like it was the first thing i did when i woke up. but it's okay- sometimes life just works that way, and i need to remind myself that i'm allowed to have fun, even when it doesn't feel like i can/should.

i'm also feeling so much excitement around neocities- experimenting with the web and doing all of the things i want to do. sometimes i get a little overwhelmed when i see other sites, i feel like mine isn't flashy enough, isn't amazing enough, nothing to write home about. but i'm working on reminding myself that this act in and of itself is a miracle. to carve a little space on the web, just for me, is something so special. a little corner, a digital garden, whatever this is, it's mine, and it's okay to show up as i am.

apr 09, 2025 (pt. 2)

i just came back home from my interview with the dance studio. it was a really interesting interview- a lot of the topics centered around community and what it means to me. i feel like it was a blur, i was chatting the whole time and really taking my time to think about the questions and certain scenarios to talk about.

i can feel myself feeling a little anxious, and i can hear the doubts floating around in my head: thinking about how i showed up and how they'd have no reason to hire me, and just generally feeling nervous about someone saying no to me. but i understand that if i don't get this part time job, it isn't the end of the world. i'm still worthy and deserving of a job that makes me happy. i'm still able to live freely, to find a new job that fulfills me, regardless of how this all turns out.

apr 09

i'm editing my neocities because i'm trying to distract myself from my interview that's happening in an hour and a half. i'm a little nervous, but i'm also really excited at the same time. i'm catching myself dreaming about what it's like to work in a dance studio, and even though it's a receptionist role, the thought of being surrounded by dancers and meeting so many people in a day brings me so much excitement and glee. i'm not sure if i'll even get the role, or if i'll even want it after this interview, but i'm really proud of pushing myself out of my comfort zone.

for the longest time, i've always stayed in my lane, or did things because someone else told me to. for the first time, i actually applied to work somewhere different, doing a completely different role, but it's familiar enough where i feel confident i guess? it's all kind of strange to be honest.

i'm also starting to think critically about my life... what kinds of things i want to accomplish, how to get there. money is always a huge factor, but i'm thinking about where to go from here. it feels like a new page is turning.

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